[L]oving[E]u[H]urts[M]e[E]ven[M]ore ..

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Damn Uhr ! Who The Hell Do U Think You Are ?!
If Malas Nak Layan Pmpn Emo , Sudarhh Uhr !
Tak Yah Nak Layan Perh !
You Dont Know Anything About Me
And There You Are Judging Me !
I Talked To You Nicely , Treating You How You Supposed
To Be Treated !
So This Is What I Get In Return ?!
Is This WHAT I GET IN RETURN !!
ISIT !?! Damn You Uhr ! Kate Jek Jgn Mute2 ,
Last2 Kau Yg Mute !

Siol Uhr , Aku Umpe Kau , Sanggop Sacrifice
And You Took Me For Granted ?!
Do You Know Who The Hell Am I ?!
Ehk Boi , Aku Emo Pon Ade Menyusahkan Kau Perh !
Ade Perh ! Kau Ade Pernah Tanye Aku Perh Asal Aku
Asyik Sedih2 , Laughing Out At Your Stupid Jokes ?!
When DEEP DOWN INSIDE IM HURT !!
DID YOU EVER TOOK THE INITIATIVE TO ASK ME ?!
DID YOU ?! ALL YOU THINK ABOUT IS FUN FUN FUN !!
GOING TO GIGS ?! DID YOU EVEN ASK ME ?! TO TAG ALONG ?!
ASAL ?! MALU PERHH NAK AJAK AKU ?!
TAKOT MEMBER2 KAU KETAWEKAN KAU PE
LAU KAU BAWAK AKU ?!

SIAK UHR ! AKU JUMPE KAU , LAYAN KAU !
AND NI PERHH I GET IN RETURN ?!
LAU KAU NAK TAU UHR EHK , AKU UMPE KAU ,
BALIK MALAM2 , KAU TAU TAK AKU KENE MARAH NGAN
MAK AKU !!! KAU TAU TAK ?!
Sorrie Largh Ehk , I Didnt Know Knowing Someone
Who Is Damn Close &
Who Took Me For Granted Really Hurt The Most ..
If You Want To Know Something ,
Maybe I Should NOT Have Met You Or Know You !!
Yes I Said It ! I Shouldnt Have Met You !

LAU KAU NAK TAU UHR EHK ,
ASAL AKU EMO2 KAN , LET ME TELL YOU !
HAVE U EVER BEEN PUT IN AN ISOLATION PLACE ?!
WHERE ALL YOU SEE IS WALLS !
NO FUN , NO GIGS ! NOT EVEN YOUR SINGLE FRIENDS
THERE !!
EHK , I'VE BEEN IMPRISON BY MY OWN MOTHER OK ?!
NOT AT HOME ! SOMEWHERE WHICH HURTS THE MOST !
YOU WANNA KNOW WHY ? BECAUSE SHE WANTS ME
TO CHANGED ! TO BE A BETTER PERSON !
FAHAM TAK !
YOU TRY IMAGINE UHR YOURSELF
BEING IN MY SHOES ?!
IT'S KILLING ME KAYYS !

& The Most Painful Part Is When
You Said You Understands Me ..
Understands My Situations !
BUT ENDED UP ?!
YOU DID THIS ?
THANKS ALOT ..
THANK YOU SO MUCH !!
Don't Forget , What Goes Around ,
Comes Around ..
You Did This To Me Now ?
In The FUTURE It's Gonna Be Your
TURN !

EMO FOR LYFE LARGHH SEHH !

=XMissy-Stylezx3

Friday, November 20, 2009

Im So Sorrie ! I Didnt Have The Chance To Update My Blog ..
Been Busy Lately .. Busy With Life , Work & Also Been Stress
About Something .. To Tell You Guys The Truth , I Dont Know What
Should I Do Anymore .. Im Totally LOST ! I Mean In A Way .. Which , Urghh !
Ok Ok Fine ! The Truth Is .. Im Totally Scared To Fall In Love !
There I Said It ! Im Scared To Fall In Love Because .. Somehow ,
I Fell That Guys LOVE Is Just A LIE !

Everytime I Fall In Love , I Ended Up Getting Hurt !
Because .. Guys Only Say That They Love You !
But , The Truth Is , They Dont Even Know What's The Meaning
Of LOVE ! Im Done With Love ..
Totally DONE ! Why Not I Just Stay Single ?
Hold Up , I Am Already Single !
But , Im So Freakaing Lonely ! What Should I DO ?!
I Cant Seems To Find Someone To Be There For Me !
The Last Time I Felt That Way Was A Long Tyme Ago !
And That Is When I Was With Faris ..

Damn ! Im So Damn Stressed & Upset Now ..
Why Everytime When I Am With Someone , I Feel That ,
They Are Not Loving Me For Who I Am ..
But They Are Only Using Me ..
Maybe I Should Start To Jual Mahal ?
But If I Were To Jual Mahal Sangat , Then I'll Be
Too Stress Up !
Damn ! Damn ! Damn !
What Should I Do ?!

Arghhhhh !! That's It !
I'm Gonna Stay Single !
Until The Right One Comes To Me !
Loves Me For Who I Am !
Not For What I Am !
Haizzz !
>_<"

:)Missy-Stylezx3

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Damn Damn Damn ! Today , It's OFFICIAL !
Im Totally Not GOING To Fall In Lurve AGAIN ! When I FALL In Love ,
What Do I Get In Return ?! NOTHING !!
All I Get Is Getting HURT ! My Heart ?! It's DEAD ! It's Totally DEAD !
CAUSE I KNOW FROM THE BEGINING THAT UR LOVE IS JUST A LIE !!
U Can Call ME EMO Or WhatSoEva !
But The TRUTH Is , I Dont Give A Damn ! BECAUSE , That Is Who I Am !
All U Guys Do Is Just To Hurt Girl's Feelings !
NOT BEING THERE WHEN
THEY NEED U THE MOST ! ARGHHHH !
CALL ME CRAZY ?! I DONT CARE !!

ADIL , Im Sorrie .. But ..
I CANT Fall In Love With You !
Because , I Dont Want To Ruin U !
I Dont Want To Take Ur FREEDOM Away From You !
& Most Importantly I Dont Want To CONTROL You !
I Know That We Are Just Friends ..
But ! I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE !
YES IS TRUE , I LOVES U ! & I TREASURE U !
BUT ! IM SORRIE !
CAUSE MY HEART IS DEAD ! & I GAVE UP !
EVERYTIME I FALL IN LOVE ,
IT ALWAYS END IN A TRAGIC WAY !
CAUSE SOMEHOW , IM TOO HURT !
I WANT U TO ENJOY BEING WITH UR FRIENDS ..
GOING TO GIG'S AND ALL THOSE STUFF ..
HAVE FUN .. NOT BEING HURT BY ME !

When U Asked Me To Cheer Up ,
I Did .. But Deep Down Inside ,
Im HURT ! So Damn Hurt !
But I Forced Myself To SMile ,
Cause I Want To See U Happy , ADIL !

SOMEONE PLEASE !! MEND MY BROKEN HEART !
IT'S HURTING ME & MY LIFE ! ARGHHH !!

:(Missy-Stylezx3

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Im Smiling .. But Deep Down , Im Crying ! =_="

I Know , It's Hard To Make A Decision .. But .. I Dont Know What's

Wrong With Me .. Why Am I Starting To Suffer From

Philophobia ? Hmm .. Maybe Because .. Im In Love ?
Im Too Confused Myself .. LOL ..

Today , Urmm .. As Per Usual .. Met Up With "Jack" .. Waited For Him ..
At Tamp Inter .. Woahh .. This Time Round , I Was Early ..
And Now I Know How Does It Feels Like To Wait For Someone !
LENGITT SAKKK ! ARGHH ! >_<"
KAKI MCM NAK PUTUS ! HAHAH ! BUT NVM .. TAHAN JEK !
Haha .. Sorrie Dearr ..

Anyways .. Today , As Per Normal ,
Fetch Him & Send Him Back To Hougang ..
Then , I Met Up With Farah & Hairi At Hougang ..
Cause Me And "Jack" Has No Plan ..
So We Decided To Chill Together .. Me , "Jack" , Hairi & Farah ..
But , I Couldnt Stay Long .. Because , "Faidil" ( Who Now Is My God Bro )
Is Fetching Me .. Because I've Downloaded Songs For Him ..
And He Need Them Badly .. Haha ! Enjoy The Songs Bro !

But When I Was Abt To Leave The Place .. I Was Very Upset ..
Sedihh Sakk ! When I Said Goodbye To " Jack " ..
He Wanted To Lepak Much Longer .. But .. I Cant ! Im So Sorrie Sayang !
Next Tyme We Lepak Longer Kayys ?

Anyways , From Hougang , We Went To "East Point" .. Makan KFC ! LOL ! ..
Gi Jaoh2 Setakat Nak Makan Pat KFC ! Hahaha !
While I Was Eating , Faris's Mother Called Me ..
And Told Me To Make Myself Available On This Saturday ..
Because , Faris's Grandmother & Sister's Birthday ..
His Grandmother & Sister Is Very Close With Me ..
They Loved Me So Much .. But Im Having Doubts To Go ..
Because , Faris Is My Ex .. Takot2 Ade Orang Tuh Jealous ! ..
Haha ! ( Eu Know I Know Kayys ? )
After Makan KFC , Went To Farah's Mother Work Place
Which Is Also Located At East Point ..
"Mama" Was So Schocked To See Faidil ..
Haha ! His Gaining Weight ! .. Haahaa !

Then After That Make Our Way Back To Bedok ..
Faidil Ride His Bike Mcm Tak Kesah Ade Manusia Pat Blakang Ke Tak ..
Seraaaaaammm Sehh ! Hahah ! I Almost Lost My Life You Know !
Haha ! .. Reached At My Carpark , Took Out Our Phones !
& Start To Send The Songs .. One Song Took About 5 Mins ..
& He Wanted 8 Songs & Also Some Of His Pictures
Which I Snapped Few Days Ago ! Haha !
LENGIT SEHH ! TUNGGU TUNGGU ! AIYOOO !
Da La Perot Saket .. Takot2 Terbuang Air Jek ! Hahaha ! ..

After Completing , Said Goodbye To Him & Went Back Home ..
Went Home , Straight Away , On My Laptop & Straight To MSN ..
Sebab Ade Orang Special Tuh Online ! Pp8 Orang Tuh Pon Low ..
So Yarhh ! Chatted With Him .. & Ended Up , I've CRIED !
Hahah ! Infront Of The Laptop .. Mcm Orang Tak Betul ..
Mummy Thought I'm Watching Some Sad Love Drama On "Youtube" ..
Padehal2 .. Mummy Finally Got To Know That I Chatted With "Jack" ..
Dier Pon Nak Join Jugak ! Hahah ! Kacau La Mummy ..
His MINE Kayys ! LOL ! Cham Paham ! Hahaha !

After He Went To Sleep , I Was Schocked .. Amy Yankee Came Online ..
And Chatted With Me ! He Asked How Am I And All That ..
He Asked Me , Whether Im Single Or Not .. Bla Bla Bla .. Haha !

Anyways ,I Will Always Be Here For You ..
You Know That You Mean Something To Me ! & I Understand What You Mean Kayys ? I'll Cheer Up .. Smile Smile Always ! Yeahh ! .. :)

:)Missy-Stylezx3

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Urmm .. We Are Just Friends ? LOL !

O_o" .. 3 Straight Days I Met Him ! Hahaha !
Yeahh ! Hmm .. Today , Supposed To Follow Mummy To Go
Shopping .. But Decided To Say "No" To Mummy Cause I Wanted To Mit Him ..
LOL .. How Sweet Could That Be .. Haha ! Urmm .. Currently , Im Still
Confused Myself .. I Durnn Know Whether Should I Fall In Love Again Or Not ..
Woahh .. Today , Alot Of Things Happend .. Let Me Write It In Point Form .. Haha !

I Got The Chance To Talk To "Jack" Abt Something .. (The Future .. ) "Winks Winks"
Suddenly My Ex , "Zaim" Called Me .. Saying That He Wants To Patch Back .. But I Said "NO" ! Because Of His Mom !
And The Most Shocking Is When Faris , My Ex .. Called Me ! He Asked Me To Take Care Of Myself .. I Was Schocked .. He Has A Police Case .. Because Of Beating Someone Up .. Haizz .. Faris Faris ! .. If He Has To Go "IN" Then , It's All My Fault .. Sorrie Faris .. Because Of How I Broke Up With You , Ur Life Became Like This .. Im So So Sorrie Faris ! Take Care Of Urself Faris ..
Faidil Called Me .. Asked Me , How Am I And All That .. Haha ! He Wanted To Fetch Me From Hougang .. But .. Haha ! Last Min Told Me That He Needs Money To Fill The Fuel .. Haha ! So Last Min I Went Home Myself ..
Chatted With Dannie On MSN .. He Told Me That He Still Loves Me .. But .. IDK .. I'm Just Afraid That I Might Choose The Wrong Person .. They Said That We Should Follow Our Heart .. But , My Heart & Mind Is Still CONFUSED ! LOL ! Sorrie Dannie .. :)

There Is Sumthing Which Is Playing Inside My Mind .. Im Confused !
Im Scared To Fall In Love ! Arghh !
I Think Im Suffering From PhiloPhobia .. Exactly Like "Jack" .. Haha ! ..
I Think I Mixed Too Much With Him ! Haha ! .. Choose Wisely Kayy "Jack" ?

Haha ! I Still Have Ur Candid Shots ! Hahaha ! You Wanna See Them ? Haha !

Haha ! He Just Cant Sit Still ! >_<"

Bring Peace To The World Dearr ! Hahah !

Haha ! Isnt It Cute ! Haha ! Ouhkayy ! That's Enough ! Haha !
There's Actually A Cute Lil Video That I Caught On Tape When He Was Talking Abt
His Life ! Haha ! But .. I Wont Upload It On Blogger .. I'll Upload It On Youtube ..
If I Have His Permission ! .. Haha !
Adil , Eu Rawks My Socks ! Hahah ! Cant Wait Till The Next Tyme I See U Again !
Hahah ! Yeahhhh ! Woohooo !

:)Missy-Stylezx3

Sunday, November 8, 2009

What Happend Today ?? Eu Guys Really Wanna Know ?!

Today Was FUUUN !
Im Supposed To be Upset Abt Breaking Up With Zaim ..
But Somehow , I Was Happy .. Is There Sumthing Wrong With Me ?
Hmmm .. Anyways .. Today I Met Up With "Jack" a.k.a Adil ..
He Really Did Cheer Me Up .. He Made Me Laugh Most Of The Tyme ..
And Also .. I Finally Got The Chance To Even Express My Feelings ..
I Mean My Mixed Feelings .. LOL ..
Thanks For The Fun Day Adil ! I'm Gonna Treasure Every Moment Of It ..
Hopefully , U Choose Wisely Kayys ..
Dont Forget .. Bunge Bukan Sekuntum ! Yeahh Yeahh !
Emooo !! Wooots ! Haha ! Jealousy Of My Hair !
Haha ! Emoish ! LOL !
Seriously That Was Lame ! Hahah !
=_="
Jack , Oh Jack ! Haha ! Dimana Kamu ! Haha ..
~ Peace ~ Hee .. :)

:)Missy-Stylezx3

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Heyloo ! Waddup ! LOL ! Ouhkayy .. As Eu Guys Know That Im Breaking Up With "ZaimEvo" This Weekend Right ? But .. For Our 3rd Month Any Which Falls On This Saturday(The Day That We R Gonna Be Separated) , He Bought Me This Lovely Necklace .. I Was Schocked To Receive It Infront Of My House Door .. When I Opened The Package , I Was This Necklace .. & A Note .. Saying That "Im Sorrie Abt How My Mom Accused You .. This Is Our 3rd Month Ani Gift From Me To U " ..

I Straight Away Burst Into Tears ! It's So Shiny ! & I Love Silver ! Im Crazy Over Them ! But I Cant Change My Mind ! I Have A Future To Think About ! & Also , Maybe I Dun Have The Tyme To Do Alot Of Blogging .. Because , I Just Been Accepted At A Local Indonesian Restaurant ! Yerps ! Im Working Babe !! Haha ! .. Im Working @ Pepes Indonesian Restaurant Which Is Located @ Ngee Ann City .. Woohooo !! Update Soon !

:)MissyEvo ..